Blogmas day 24 – my last blogmas post :(

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How is everyone doing? I hope you all are feeling ok and if you are not remember it is ok not to be ok. Well, it is Christmas Eve night, so I will keep today’s post very short. I am so thankful to you all for joining me for my first blog mas. I will definitely be doing this again. You all have given me the best Christmas presents; with your support, kind words and constant encouragement.
So this is I signing off my blog for a few days to enjoy the festivities with my loved ones. Keep safe everyone and remember self care is still important over the next few days. Big love to you all!!

Merry Christmas everyone 🎄

Vixxy rose

Xxx

Blogmas Day 23 – step away from the wrapping paper and relax

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Hey everyone

How is everyone doing? I hope you all are feeling ok and if you are not remember it is ok not to be ok. ‘Deck the halls with boughs of holly’ the Christmas spirit has finally arrived, rather late than never. I am even treated myself to a new Christmas jumper for Christmas day because that’s the crazy life I lead. Today I went and did my family rounds, for most people that are a joyful occasion for me it brings on anxiety. But I survived it and that it the main thing, now I can sit back relax and focus on enjoying my Christmas.

Blogmas Day 23 is here; still amazes me how the time has flown over these 23 days. I am so proud of this blog and my blogmas posts I am giving myself pat on the back for my hard work. I think it has really helped me writing these posts daily while I have been struggling myself. I have been trying to take my own advice for a change. Well, gather round for the main event of the evening…

Blogmas Day 23 – step away from the wrapping paper and relax

Ok people time to chill out and relax now. If you end up stressing all the way up to Christmas day causing the holidays is going to fly by. Which means you will spend no time to enjoy your time do some things to boost your Christmas spirit and self care.
Most the time we are planning with mental health on keeping important things like taking medication and steps to take when your anxiety is increasing. We plan to keep us from going off the deep end and basically keep us going. So where is the fun in that?
So I want you to put down the wrapping paper and plan some things to do over the next few days over Christmas that are fun! It could be as simple as plan some Christmas movie time in your pajamas and a big bowl of popcorn or plan some baking time by planning to make some time to make some Christmas cookies.
You deserve some fun time over Christmas even if it something you need to plan in!

Until tomorrow people!
Take care all

Vixxy rose
Xxx

Blogmas Day 22 – don’t just put a bow on things!

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Hey everyone

How is everyone doing? I hope you all are feeling ok and if you are not remember it is ok not to be ok. Finally broke up from work and ready to push forward with celebrating the holidays! I am not going to lie came home after work and had a couple of gin and tonics, as why the hell not! So I am feeling a bit more after of the storm and I think I am over the worse of it now so fingers crossed things will only get better. Todays post is really late so sorry but went to get a few things from the supermarket and took longer then I thought it would.

Blogmas Day 22 – don’t just put a bow on things!

I am starting to feel my Christmas spirit rise a bit more today and no it is not down to the alcohol. I think now I have broken up from work I can now concentrate on things I couldn’t put 100% thought process into, so my self care is back on track a bit more.
So today I am doing another Christmas tip – don’t just put a bow on things

Sometimes we can just put a smile on or say we are ok when we are not for the sake of not upsetting other people, especially around this time of year. We just wrap ourselves up in Christmas paper and put on a bow on top and act like everything is ok.
Don’t push your need aside over the Christmas period it is important to remember you matter as much as someone else’s Christmas. It is easy to throw self care out the window as many distractions out there and then we can end up back to square one after Christmas and undo a lot of work and recovery. So remember yes enjoy yourself but don’t suffer for the sake of others. Christmas is about everyone including you.

Until tomorrow people!
Take care all

Vixxy rose
Xxx

Blogmas Day 21 – I Am Breaking My Christmas Wreath

 

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Hey everyone

How is everyone doing? I hope you all are feeling ok and if you are not remember it is ok not to be ok. Just one more day left at work then I break up for Christmas! Oh, I am looking forward to pajama days and Christmas movies with my DIY family. I am going to drink eat and be merry! Well hopefully, that’s if I am still not in the middle of the storm. The more we edge closer to Christmas the more I worry that I am going to ruin it for myself and others around me if I am still in the blasted funk! Well even though I am getting sick of my moaning so you poor things must be rolling you eyes now so I would just get on with the show!

Blogmas day 21 without my usual longwinded introduction, you lucky lot!

Blogmas Day 21 – I Am Breaking My Christmas Wreath

I hate this vicious cycle of feeling shit then feeling guilty for feeling shit and THEN feeling weak for not being able to do something about it around and around I go. Someone get me off this ride, please…
So I am going to pull out the big guns and sprinkle some glitter on it. I need to get this circle well and truly broken! As the battle isn’t over and it is time to get my mental health toolbox on the go and break my wreath of negativity to pieces.
The thing is that is can always feel too late to turn things around, that’s the negative holly speaking, use your tools this Christmas destroy those feelings. Don’t push them aside to come back bigger and worse as no one needs that.
I am going to add a few festive tools to my toolbox:
• The joy of being around people whom I want to spend time with not just because I have too.
• Christmas cry, what I spoke about yesterday is a big tool I will use to help me process my feelings.
• Fun! I am going to make sure I do one thing for myself at least over the Christmas period.

So anything can be a tool for your toolbox, as it is what helps you so maybe think about added a couple of extra things to get you through the holiday!

Until tomorrow people!
Take care all

Vixxy rose
xxx

Blogmas Day 20 – All I Want For Christmas….

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Hey everyone

How is everyone doing? I hope you all are feeling ok and if you are not remember it is ok not to be ok. I have had enough of this in between of not being ok and being ok. I want to get off this swing set of moods; I just want to be stable whether that entails being in a low mood for a bit longer. 5 days away from Christmas eeek I think I am ready I am not 100% sure though. But comes Friday people that will be my cut off, I will be doing my best to enjoy the holidays and not stressing over things I have or haven’t got.

Blogmas day 20! We are getting closer to the last few days of Christmas, are you going to miss my blabbering on? I am going to miss being so organized, as a little bit worried it will all go out the window once blogmas is over. Lets not waste time though and get on with the show…

Blogmas Day 20 – All I Want For Christmas….

What do I want for Christmas? Hmm I usually find this question hard to answer. Not this year though! This is my tip for people with mental illness problems to add onto there Christmas list, a good journal. My journal goes everywhere with me, in my bag or under my pillow. It is such a simple small thing but something that could help save your life.

My journey is my best friend when I want to write something positive like my tiny victories list. Sometimes though it is my worst enemy, where I can vent my frustrations or general anger. A journal is a lifeline and an important tool in my recovery. I think it is so important to build up the right tools in your mental health toolbox and it is the little things that can count the most.

 

Until tomorrow people!
Take care all

Vixxy rose
xxx

Blogmas Day 19 – My Christmas Cry

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Hey everyone

How is everyone doing? I hope you all are feeling ok and if you are not remember it is ok not to be ok. Am I ok? I really don’t know, like I said yesterday I am in the middle of the storm. I do feel the bitch of anxiety waking up from her nap, lucky me!
I am focusing on trying to not let my mind get away with me, which is harder than it seems. I am also trying to stop myself from beating myself up over the fact I am in such a low place. With the usual questions going through my mind.How did I get to this point? Why am I so weak? When will it fucking end? Well on that notes…

Blogmas day 18! I really do have so much appreciation now for people who post daily. It is been a challenge to keep myself motivated especially since hitting this low cycle. So I am so proud of myself for ignoring these negative thoughts and fighting through the negative fog. Anyway let’s try and sprinkle some positivity into this blog, or not…

Blogmas Day 19 – My Christmas Cry

I have told a few people in my life about this and mostly been looked at like I have finally lost all my marbles. I have probably been doing this now about 7 years now. Christmas can be emotional at the best of times but add that with mental illness then it can be an emotional whirlwind. I started this tradition not long after my Nan passed. I was finding myself getting so upset around Christmas due to how much I missed her, as a lot of my Christmas memories had a lot to do with her. As the years went on and more things started being added to my list to cry about around Christmas, I needed an outlet.

So one Christmas, I decided to watch something that made me cry just to let out all the emotion in one go. Now 7 years on and I still do this and it really helps, I feel such relief and I know sometimes it is not that I am watching something sad that makes me cry, it is just the fact it is my Christmas cry.
I watch an English TV show called The Royal Family Christmas special – queen of Sheba. This is a guarantee to start the waterworks. Why do I think this is a good idea? We pent-up so much over the holidays, so why make you a ticking time bomb? Just let it out have a Christmas cry. Just spend an hour with your self a few days before Christmas and watch something or listen to something to let out those emotions.

Until tomorrow people!
Take care all

Vixxy rose
xxx

Blogmas day 18 – Were The Three Wise Men Really So Wise?

 

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Hey everyone

How is everyone doing? I hope you all are feeling ok and if you are not remember it is ok not to be ok. I think I am in the eye of the storm, I am not completely feeling myself but not feeling as bad as I did, also know it is not over just quite yet. But the hope is starting to chase the dark depression cloud away and the bitch of anxiety seems to be taking a nap right now. But this time of year there are a lot of you out there struggling, as Christmas is not so easy to deal with a mental illness. So keep moving forward guys and keep focused on your self care, as you are not alone we are all here fighting alongside you.

Blogmas day 18 is here! One week today until Christmas day, what the actual fuck how is it only round the corner. I am not prepared what so ever, I still got lots to do, trying not to panic! So who is ready for today’s posts, well here we go…

Blogmas day 18 – Were The Three Wise Men Really So Wise?

We all know the story of the nativity so I won’t write it all, but the part of the three wise men following the star is a bit that really sticks with me. I am not religious at all, but I love the part of the three wise men just following hope and faith that the journey will end in something good.
So yes I think the wise men weren’t wise, but I think their blind faith is something we can take on board. If only it was so simple with times like this when I am feeling a loss, to be able to look up to the sky and follow a star to where I need to be, not so easy. We can put that faith in our recovery though, I know sometimes the things we do feels like we are clutching at straws and that negativity in itself can hinder the recovery. Following the star can be just believing in yourself or just believing that the therapy that you may have will help. We lack faith and hope with mental health and maybe a little of Christmas spirit can sprinkle it in our life’s a little.

Until tomorrow people!

Take care all

Vixxy rose

xxx