So here we are on day who the fuck knows of lockdown, and I have learnt a lot about myself so far during this time.
- Firstly I spend a lot of time going to my fridge for something and end up just standing there with the fridge door open conplantating life.
- I have a cupboard full of cups and only use 2 of them.
- I’m not as tidy as I thought I was.
- I’m still awkward as hell.
- I get very lonely.
- Feeling ignored and left behind can be my biggest trigger.
I am trying to do new things even if it is not every day, but so far I am rebelling against myself. It is just too easy to slip into a comfortable routine even if you know that it may not be the best thing for you. It’s like my comfy bra, it’s over warn, it is falling apart and it doesn’t give me any support, but I still wear it the most because it’s comfy and familiar.
It is so easy right now to sweat the small things too, because they are right fucking there. There is not so many things to distract you from them at the moment and those small things can appear bigger then what they are.
So my tip of the day is-
Don’t let life grind you down.
Life is so different and hard for us all at the moment and we could all do with a sprinkle of positivity. I used to be one of those people who just didn’t understand positive people, and now I want to be one of them, as I’m sick of this dark cloud hanging over us.
It can be hard to not let life grind you down at the moment, it can be hard to put on a cheery face after weeks of only seeing your own face and it can be hard not to get emotional due to this pandemic. We have to try and remember that strength is not holding back the tears or beating ourself for having a bad day or two. It takes a lot of strength to be vulnerable and so remember you got this shit!