Things just got too fucking much,,,,

Hey everyone,

So long time no blogging! I have taken some time away from my blog and also took a bit of s step away from my social media to. I stopped interacting with people as much and posting as much because things just got on top of me. It felt like i was juggling too much and if I didn’t put a few things down, then I was risking everything coming crashing down.

In a way, it felt like I just gave up. I let the negatively build and build and it infected every part of me. But also, I ave been struggling with my sight for nearly 2 years now, and recently just have my first procedures on eyes to help me with this.
Life has been fucking hard and I just didn’t know if I could do this shit anymore, this past year has probably been the most suicidal I have ever been. My life was changing in a negative way and I had no control over it, I had no control over the diseases affecting my eyes and I just couldn’t see a way out of the darkness that was surrounding me.
My physical and mental health was on a downward spiral.
I felt no ashamed I couldn’t read or write very well and I am still struggling with that, and that’s another reason why I stopped posting and interacting so much on my blog and social media, it’s not easy to do that shit when you can’t read.

Am I better?

No, but I’m healing. My eyesight is starting to improve and I am learning to take things day by day. I have learnt that it is ok to fall but you can’t stay down you got to fight to get back up.

Well, I am back though and I got a lot that I want to share with you all, the good the bad and the damn right weird! Also, my podcast will be making a return so keep a lookout.

Take care,

Vixxy Rose

xxx