Plan, what fucking plan?

Hey everyone!

I am tired, hungry, anxious and did I mention tired. Why didn’t anyone tell us that this is what adulthood is all about? Making sure you’ve got a constant supply of paracetamol in your cupboard, never feeling like you are getting enough sleep and getting anxiety over every fucking thing.
I remember looking up to people who were my age now when I was younger and thinking I can’t wait to have that amount of freedom. No one prepares you for that freedom though? We go to school we learn about fractions and King Henry’s wives but shouldn’t we be learning about the cost of living and the importance of taking care of your mental health.
I ran headfirst into adulthood and as soon as I could buy my first legal drink in a pub I thought, I got this shit. Oh, how wrong I was. Everyone around me keeps talking about a plan, was I supposed to have a plan? I’m thirty now, is it too late for a plan? Am I suppose to be on the right career path by now, am I suppose to feel responsible by now and am I supposed to be fucking up less by now? Is that the plan?

If a plan was so important then why the fuck are we told to get into debt to further our education at the start of adulthood? Why are we not taught more about politics so we understand who to vote for? Why are we not told that things don’t always go to fucking plan?
I have spent a lot of my adulthood not feeling like an adult because I’m not like the adults I looked up to or even like some of the adults that are around me. I am not married and I don’t have kids yet, and I also still have no fucking clue what I am doing. You know what though, that’s ok. It is ok to eat cereal for dinner, it’s ok to enjoy cartoons still, to live life your way and it is ok to be an adult who doesn’t have a plan.

Take care,

Vixxy Rose
xxx

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