Welcome back to crazy little things! I hope everyone is doing ok and if you are not, well that is ok too because you don’t have to be ok all of the time as you are only human.
I had the strangest of dreams last night, which is funny considering I have been getting more into dreams recently and the meaning behind them. So in this dream, my partner came home with my cousins baby, I remember thinking how weird because me and my cousin don’t really speak. My partner informs us we are babysitting and we decide to take the baby out for the day. I remember the baby was smiling and laughing at me and I was petrified of dropping her. Then while we are out I lose the baby and I am trying to get everyone to help me find the baby but no one wants to, as they kept saying it is your responsibitly, your fault and your problem. That’s all I can remember. I looked up babies in dreams and it means new opportunities and new beginnings and if the baby is happy then it means it is going to be full of joy. By me losing the baby in the dream means I am getting in my own way and that if I don’t stop self-sabotaging myself, then I may end up fucking up a new opportunity.
This dream freaked me out so much because I do feel like I am on the verge of something new and exciting but I am holding back because of my lack of self-belief. This is me all over, I have made the same mistakes over again and missed out on things because I literally step in my own way. How do I change a habit of a lifetime?
Honestly, I don’t know but what I do know is my subconscious and my conscious is trying to tell me it is time I let myself grow and to move the fuck out of my way.