Welcome back to crazy little things! I hope everyone is doing ok and if you are not, well that is ok too because you don’t have to be ok all of the time as you are only human. So as you are reading this post I am actually homeward bound to not so sunny England. Am I excited to be leaving the sunshine and a week free of responsibility, erm no! But I am looking forward to taking this new attitude back home with me. I have spent a lot of time with my thoughts and listening to some really great podcasts while away and I feel like its kind of woke me up. Some may call it a mid-life crisis or a new awakening but I realise that there are so many things making me unhappy back home and life us too fucking short to be unhappy. I also downloaded the app called Pattern and it was ninety percent freaky accurate, I won’t go into too much detail about that as I will be doing a blog post about that soon.
So what’s the plan?
There really isn’t one apart from to start putting my happiness first and not settle in this bubble of negativity that I created for myself. I moan I don’t have connections with people but keep my myself physically and mentally guarded. I moan about my job but still keep going back for more. I keep saying I’m going to do something creative with my life but do fucking nothing about it. So maybe the plan should be follow the fuck through.
I do believe we can create our own triggers sometimes with mental illness and I am guilty of that. I am tired of feeling like I have just accepted second best in life and this is the best I can do, I’m wrong so fucking wrong. I stopped dreaming and being my weird wonderful self and now the fucks are gone and I’m moving forward with life instead of standing still.
Well thanks to everyone who reads my posts and standing by me during this journey of life. I hope you carry on as bigger better things are to come!
Take care everyone,