Welcome back to crazy little things! I hope everyone is doing ok and if you are not, well that is ok too because you don’t have to be ok all of the time as you are only human. I am currently sunning myself and the last few days has gave me chance to not just physically relax but mentally. The thing is I’m an over-thinker and there is no such thing as a off button for that. So even though I’m on holiday my issues packed their bag and came along with me. What I would do to just let my fucking hair down and not have a care in the world, what I would do to just be comfortable in my own fucking skin! So it has been a great holiday so far but it has also been challenging.
Issues fucking issues.
I have anxiety issues, depression issues, body issues, food issues, rejection issues and abandonment issues. Basically a lot of fucking issues! I know everybody has issues but I want to be done I just want to be me not me and issues. It’s like I am in a toxic relationship with myself and I can’t seem to break the patterns. I want to be more than my issues I want to just do more with my life then just fucking survive. So far this holiday there has been some big steps like wearing swimsuits in public and eating in public but my issues are slowly taking over this holiday. I need to start moving forward and I decided that I want to do more then just focus on mental health. I want to explore more sides of me and take the focus off my issues and put the light on more positive things. I don’t know what yet but I’m working on it and like always I’m just a work in progress so bare with me!
I’m not saying I’m not going to write about mental heath again because I enjoy doing it and it is a big part of my life. I’m saying that there is more too me than my issues and I want to explore that avenue and I hope you still want to join me on that journey.
Take care everyone,