Welcome back to crazy little things! I hope everyone is doing ok and if you are not, well that is ok too, as you don’t have to be ok all the time as you are only human. I feel so emotional at the moment and I am trying to push the walls back that are closing in on me by working through my emotions as best as I can. It is like everywhere I turn there is a reminder of what is fucking with my head which then makes me feel so weak. “You will never be good enough” is on a loop inside my mind and I just wish that I could ignore it but it is not so easy. The thing is I don’t want to sound like a broken record anymore, I want to see myself rise above this. The problem with that is depression is like quicksand, you don’t always see it coming no matter how cautious you are and once you step foot in it you are stuck, it not so easy to pull yourself out of it and sometimes you need a helping hand to get out.
I don’t want to feel like this, I don’t want to feel so fucking broken anymore. I want my power back.
Taking the power back!
It is not so easy to deal with depression or anxiety or mental illness in general, it can feel like your triggers hold your power. Which can make you feel so scared of this fucking world. Never knowing whether something will trigger you or not and end up overthinking the situation and triggering yourself.
These days triggers are everywhere because of social media creating new types of anxiety that didn’t exist twenty plus years ago, that’s fucked up when you think about it. Our parents and grandparents didn’t worry about the perfect selfie or upsetting family members or friends on Facebook because you didn’t tag them in a post. We are living in a world that feeds off anxiety and I’ve got enough issues I don’t need to add anymore.
We need to take the power back. You are fucking enough, it doesn’t matter how many likes your posts have. You are worthy of love, it doesn’t matter how many followers you have. You deserve to live not just exist in this world. Take the power back.
I am going to end this post with a great song that is in my playlist for when things get a little too much.