Welcome back to crazy little things! I hope everyone is doing ok and if you are not, well that is ok too because you don’t have to be ok all the time as you are only human. I think my inner emo has gone back to her dark hole to listen to my chemical romance and write some dark poetry, as this week I didn’t feel as emotional as I did towards the end of last week. I think Monday’s eye appointment was a big factor in me being able to push the bullshit aside and focus on me and what is laid in front of me. As it was confirmed on Monday that I will be having surgery on my eyes to help me in the long battle I have with this chronic case of pan-uveitis. I am glad that I am slowly getting somewhere but it will be a while before I see the light at the end of the tunnel. I realise now the stuff that happened at the end of last week, was just bullshit and if people were genuinely interested in being in my life then they would have made an effort a long time ago. I may struggle at times to see my self-worth but I do know I am worth more then what is being offered to me by certain people, I may not understand love but I am damn sure that what has been shown to me by certain people is not unconditional love.
Can we really build a bridge over the ashes of the ones that have been previously attempted to be built before and have failed, who the fucks know, I guess we shall see.
So today’s tip of the day is –
Does anyone really have their shit together?
Well, do they? If we asked everyone we knew in our lives to honestly answer if they had their shit together even ones who seem like they have, they wouldn’t be able to say wholeheartedly that they had their shit together. I don’t think it is possible. As we all have experienced times where an issue or situation has felt like it has popped up out of nowhere. Maybe it is not about having your shit together but about how you handle that shit.
We live a world where perfection is flaunted in our faces everywhere, thanks to social media. I think this is why there is so much stigma attached to mental illness or mental health issues, it is seen as a flaw and the person who has it is tainted. Which is so fucked up.
If you truly believe you have your shit together you are either lying to yourself or fucking extremely lucky and you should be playing the lottery. I don’t think there is any shame in not having your shit together because I think it is what makes us human and show us our strengths and weaknesses. So what you had toothpaste on your chin and didn’t notice till lunch time, so what you had to take a day off because you need a self-care day and so what you have no clue what you are doing most days as does anyone?!