Welcome back to crazy little things! I hope everyone is doing ok and if you are not, well that is ok too because you don’t have to be ok all the time as you are only human. So here we are the end of another week and some new possible opportunities are at our fingertips. Well for me it is going to bring a few days away camping in my happy place away from home and a week off work so yeah I’m fucking happy about what next week will bring. I am still waiting to hear back from when therapy will start and my new assessment will take place, that is the massive downside when you reach out for help, the long wait. We all know what waiting can cause though, a shit tonne of overthinking. I think it is down to the fact I am so ready to tackle these issues and excited the path that may take me. I am also worried though that when I slip into that dark place it is getting deeper, which then makes it harder to get out.
I am going to try to put all this to the back of my mind though this week so I can just enjoy being in the moment and try to not take things so seriously and enjoy myself camping with my partner.
So here are this week’s good shit and bad shit.
• I have opened up more to some of the people closest to me about my mental health problems.
• I have taken better care of myself this week when my eyes were hurting too much at work instead of powering through I left early to go home and rest. When I was experiencing anxiety or low mood I have made sure to do some self-care.
• I didn’t completely lose my shit this week when my bus was really late which made me miss my train, twice. This is huge for me. as this is a massive trigger for me and my anxiety. I was pleasantly surprised by how calm and accepting I was in this situation.
• I hate the way I look at the moment to the point where I am struggling to even look in the mirror.
• I have only managed to go to the gym twice this week due to my unwillingness to leave my comfort zone.
This week there has been more good shit then bad and I feel that is down to me shifting my mindset to be more present, instead of overthinking about what has happened and what is yet to come.