Welcome back to crazy little things! I hope everyone is doing ok and if you are not, well that is ok too because you don’t have to be ok all the time as you are only human. I find nighttime to be the worst for me at times, I could be having a happy go lucky day and then when you slow down at night my thoughts come rushing back like a massive wave of negativity crashing on the shores of my mind. I think this is mainly because at the moment I am trying to keep strong about a certain situation that is going on but I keep getting reminders every fucking where. With each wave that hits me serves as a strong cold reminder of this reality, it fucking sucks. As I know I am not a perfect human being but I don’t deserve this, I am always the villain, the black sheep, the outsider no matter what. So while these negative thoughts are buzzing around my head I thought I would try and turn a negative to into a positive by being creative.
One step away…
There was a girl who always felt like she was one step away from the people around her. With every step forward she made, they took two steps away. The girl could never seem to figure out how to catch up to them so she was not alone anymore. The people never took notice of the girl’s efforts to make those steps towards them. What they didn’t know is the girl would do anything to catch up with them but they are the ones who always walk the fuck away from her. No matter what direction she went in, she was always one step away from everyone.
One day the girl didn’t make the step forward she had enough of getting nowhere. Instead, the girl realized that she had a choice all along and that it is time to let people make those steps towards her and she knows she would not ever leave those people one step away as she knows how that feels. What the girl didn’t realize that this was a step forward that she had made, a step forward to seeing her own self-worth.