Welcome back to crazy little things! I hope everyone is doing ok and if you are not, well that is ok too because you don’t have to be ok all the time as you are only human. Well, this human is feeling so run down, I feel a cold brewing under the surface and I honestly feel like my mojo has taken an extended leave of absence as I just can’t get into that thing we call life. Well, maybe I am being a tad dramatic and wishful that one day it will be acceptable to go in pajamas. Right now the thought of leaving my comfort zone is so hard, I have a lot of emotional things going on and my comfort zone helps to melt those troubles away but I am taking small steps here and there, even if every now and then I sprint back to my comfort zone. I am trying and that is all I can ask from myself right now.
So since I am feeling deflated I thought I would do something I haven’t done in a while, I am going to write a letter to myself. I think this is a great exercise to do as we know ourselves the best, no matter how lost we can feel and I feel that the best person to talk to at times is yourself. Also, I spend a lot of time talking to myself why not write to myself!
To me, from me!
So I hear you have been feeling rather shitty lately and I have noticed you are grumpier than normal. Can’t decided whether to give you a big hug or a good shake of the shoulders to snap you out of this. I know it feels like there is always something going wrong, whether it is the eye illness, family problems, and even body image issues. It is like you don’t have a moments peace to just enjoy life for a moment. The thing is, you care too much sometimes and hold on to things that you need to just let go because those things are not changing anytime soon and the time and energy you waste on them are not making a difference. Instead, we need to focus on us, on our happiness and well being.
You are stronger then you think and I know it feels like right now you can’t seem to do right from wrong but it is not true, Look at the drawings you are creating, look at the fact you made a good decision to go back to therapy and seek more help with your mental illness and look at the fact that you are trying. You are not perfect and there are times where I wanna slap you, for instance when you sleep through the 50 million alarms you set. You are not perfect but you are you and you need to accept the good and the bad parts of you and when you find that balance I am more than sure you are going to be an unstoppable fucking force!