Welcome back to crazy little things! I hope everyone is doing ok and if you are not, well that is ok too because you don’t have to be ok all the time as you are only human. You know how I said the dark clouds are gone, well a few decided to pop back for a visit. I am not down or really that anxious, I just feel my mind is juggling so much right now and can’t find a solution for them. I feel like I am still reaching for something that I can’t have, a balanced fucking life! There is an internal battle going on between what I want to be and who I am and the only thing it is doing is tearing me apart. Even though I know this is nothing to do with my mental illness, it doesn’t stop me from feeling a little lost in life, no fuck it, down shit creek without a paddle. It scares the shit out of me that at nearly 30 I am this lost in life. Some days I can feel like I got it together and then other days, I am like who I am kidding no I don’t, as I just ate icing out of a tube! So right now at this moment, being an adult can go fuck itself you can find me in my blanket fort!
So today’s tip of the day is –
Embrace the glorious mess that you are!
You know when you are having one of those days, weeks or months where you realize that you would rather stick pins in your eyes then try and be a functional adult? Well, that is a feeling many people have and many people have their own ways of dealing with that. Some people respond to tough love and need that kick up there ass to give them that get up and go feeling again. Some people need a softer approach and need to be nurtured and then there are some of us who are in-between and need a bit of both.
The one thing though that I feel is needed for both is to embrace the glorious mess that you are. So yeah you haven’t brushed your hair in a few days but you got out of bed. So what you haven’t gone out and interacted with the outside world for a few days but you texted your friend back letting them know you are ok. Being accountable for who we are and what we do can be that first step to putting a bit of that mess in order even if it is organized chaos.