Welcome back to crazy little things! I hope everyone is doing ok and if you are not, well that is ok too because you don’t have to be ok all the time as you are only human. Those fucking dark clouds love to linger, don’t they? Even with the occasional relieve of light breaking through the cloud now and then, I can still hear the deafening booms of the thunder up above. I am turning 30 years old in a few weeks and is this what I got to look forward too! I am feeling so disconnected from the world around me and it fucking scars me that this is feeling will never go away, am I always going to feel like a ghost in this world?
Yeah I started off quite deep but it feels like everything I am feeling is bubbling away at the service and it can’t be pushed down, it like being covered in tiny cuts all over that just won’t heal. I can’t decide whether I am having a midlife crisis at 29 years old and retreating back to my emo ways or I seriously need to get some help because the clouds have been over me way too long now. Either way, what a fucking fun way to spend the last few weeks of my twenties, I really don’t like my mind right now as it is being a bit of a bitch, no, a big bitch!
Today’s tip of the is –
We are a collection of stars.
The reason I speak out and do my blog and my other social media connected to this is not because I want to be seen as a victim and want sympathy, no, I want to be seen as a warrior. It is not easy to battle suicidal thoughts, negative thoughts, anxiety, manic high, out of control emotions, and to feel like you are one step behind everyone else. We all are having many demons, issues, mental illnesses, and loss but many of us keep getting up from each fall and not only helping yourself rise we help others rise too. That is not a victim that is a warrior. There is so many of you out there who are sharing your story as it plays on and thank you for that, I have been inspired and helped by many of you and even though I am in this deep dark hole right now, if it weren’t for people like you it would be a lot harder to get myself out. Keep writing, keep drawing, keep creating because we see you we need you, to not only help end the stigma surrounding mental health but to keep being part of the stars in the darkest of nights for when someone is losing their way.