Welcome back to crazy little things! I hope everyone is doing ok and if you are not, well that is ok too because you don’t have to be ok all the time as you are only human. So I am back after a few days hiatus, the reason behind it is I completely broke down. It really came to a shock to not only myself but my partner too, I just think after months and months of trying to keep standing during the storm, I fell. I have had it rough mentally and physically over these last few months and the storm was just too strong this time. One of the hardest things was telling my partner I couldn’t take it anymore I just wanted to give up. I can’t imagine what that must of done to him to not only of heard this from me nut to witness me breaking down like that and I felt so much guilt for dragging him into this nightmare I was calling life.
So for 2 -3 days I shut down from the world and was kind of stuck in a coma of my own mind, trying to fight my way through the dark to see if I could find the light again. So I guess the big question is, am I feeling better?
No, I am not better, unfortunately, a depressive mood cycle doesn’t work that easy but I am starting to build myself back up again and it is going to be a slow process but I am so proud of myself for speaking about it, for recognizing that I needed help and for fighting those negative thoughts.
Thank you to everyone that has reached out to me these last few days your support has been amazing and mans the world to me. Well, I am keeping it short and sweet today and normal blog posts will resume over the next few days.