Welcome back to crazy little things! I hope everyone is doing ok and if you are not, well that is ok too because you don’t have to be ok all the time as you are only human. So it has been a weird week mentally, even though I have the dark clouds floating above me, I can’t cry. The thing is I want to cry I know that sounds weird, I just know a good cry will do me good but the tears won’t come. Have I used up all my tear? I even googled this shit because I am a crier and this is freaking me out. Then it hit me. The dark clouds are not floating above me because I am sad, they are there because I got myself a little lost and I am feeling a bit hopeless at the moment. This is the magical fucked up thing with depression and a low mood cycle with bipolar, even though sadness can play a role sometimes it is not the definition of it. Right now a lot of my emotions are on off mode, this is a hard and weird head space to be in because you can lose the sense of direction rather quickly. It is like being lost in a jungle with no map or compass to guide you back to your path. Fun times!
On a lighter note, my new podcast Honest Tea will be coming out this weekend! Working towards this podcast and working on my artwork have kept me sane these past few weeks and I can’t wait to show you what I have been working on!
So today’s tip of the day is –
Don’t listen to the green-eyed monster.
It is so easy to compare your life to another person, especially with social media these days. I have been guilty of listening to the green-eyed monster numerous times. Why don’t I have that? Why are they doing better than me? Why does life keep knocking me down and lift them up?
Is the grass really greener on the other side or are you casting a shadow over your own grass? The thing is no one’s life is perfect we all have issues we have things we would like to change about ourselves if we were honest. Are we putting our energy into the wrong thing? The more we focus on the negative parts of our lives the bigger the shadow gets over the grass. If we spent more energy on focusing on the positives in our lives then we wouldn’t we wouldn’t care about whose grass is greener.
Also, the green-eyed monster and the bitch of anxiety are best friends they go everywhere together. Don’t sell yourself short because what you see on a screen, at the end of the day that is what anxiety wants you to do. So if you find social media is bringing out the worst in you take a break and live in the moment, don’t let the green-eyed monster or anxiety define who you are.
Take care all,