Welcome back to crazy little things! I hope everyone is doing ok and if you are not, well that is ok too because you don’t have to be ok all the time as you are only human. Well, so far this week actually this month nothing really has gone to plan. It has left me feeling like I am stuck in the mud and I have loss sense of direction. How do you find the courage to move forward when there is no clear direction? How do you change your goals to adapt to a new situation? Will the way become clear? These are some of the questions that have plaguing me this week and to be honest I haven’t been in the right mental state to take those questions. Instead, I started small and actually left my house when I didn’t need to and went for a walk and also trying to keep my mind busy but not too busy so the bitch of anxiety doesn’t take over, as she has barged in a few times just to fuck things up a bit.
the lesson I have learned is that we can plan our life’s but we also we need to accept that plants have to change or be adapted because the situation has. I have to start seeing the eye condition in a positive light and that it will give me the time I need off from work to focus on myself and achieve things I wouldn’t be able to do if I was at work.
So my tip of the day is –
The mental balance between fuck no and fuck yeah!
Dealing we mental illness can feel like you are like a coin and that there seems to be two main response from you when it comes to life, you are either all in or all out. It can make you feel like you are living in a black and white world and grey area doesn’t exist. The hard thing we face is to introduce colour to the scenario as it can be tricky, sometimes we can add too much and become overwhelmed or we don’t add enough and we are still in our comfort zone. So how do we find that balance between fuck no and fuck yeah?
Honestly, I can’t give you the answer because it is something that is personal to you. It may be trial and error and looking at new methods of introducing new things into your life without that automatic response. Some people might find it better by doing a group as a group and sharing the load and others may feel more comfortable doing it alone. Whether you are just trying to use public transport without a panic attack or make conversation with someone new, for me I find it bet to try different methods as there is more than one path that leads to your goal.
Take care all,