Welcome back to crazy little things! I hope everyone is doing ok and if you are not, well that is ok too because you don’t have to be ok all the time as you are only human. What is wrong with me? Why after so many years of feeling like the black sheep of the family, do I still get surprised I get treated like one? Honestly, right now I am more angry than hurt but hey ho I know I will get over it and I know one day my heart will feel less heavy. there is nothing I know I could or even want to do to resolve it apart from moving forward with my life with my head held high and a sneaky middle finger behind my back. This is the thing, each time something shitty happens I am shocked but I don’t know why I am because it is nothing new. I am not perfect but I deserve to be treated better than how I am treated at the moment and I know that now. So now instead of running from the pain, I am going to embrace it and learn from it hopefully. one more thing, to that family member who reads my blog posts and reports it back, this is why you and I don’t speak anymore.
So anyway enough of my rant, i have already put too much energy into that situation then it deserves. I am actually feeling quite positive at the moment, even though it might not seem it from my rant. I am making good steps into making myself happy and focusing on the things in my life that I didn’t think I could do, as it is now time I turn I can’t into I can.
So let’s move on to my blogmas post day 21 post –
Keeping an eye out for Santa??
Do I secretly hope that Santa is real? Yes, I bloody do! I am not ashamed of wishing that because I am a big child at heart and also wish that Hogwarts was real too. What do both those things have in common? Magic.
The kind of magic that can make you feel like you are being sprinkled in glitter while the reality melts away. Yes, I am weird but if you didn’t know that by now that is on you not me. What I am trying to say is yes as adults we love Christmas but not for the same reasons as we did when we get older as I said before our Christmas list changes and we want more things that you can’t buy with money and no i don’t mean a bigger bank account, even though that is on the list this year!
So this year on Christmas eve look up to the night sky and think and about the things you want that money can’t buy and instead of wishing for Santa to bring them for you think of how you can create that magic for yourself.
Take care all,