Welcome back to crazy little things! I hope everyone is doing ok and if you are not, well that is ok too because you don’t have to be ok all the time as you are only human. So today I made big steps towards becoming the better version of myself. I haven’t had my hair cut in years due to a bad experience a few years ago where a hairdresser made me cry by telling me I was weird and insecure and if I lose some weight I would feel better. Also, my mom hates when I dye my hair bright colours. It is time I take my fucking life back. Instead of having the attitude a few years ago of fuck it, I have let anxiety fester inside. So today I took back control and went to a hairdresser for a consultation. It wasn’t easy; I cried, I had the shakes and my heart felt like it was going to beat out my chest. I told the hairdresser about my anxiety and the bad experiences I have had and was given such a warm reception. The hairdresser really was so kind and understanding and now I booked in for the 27th of this month and I am so excited I could cry.
See this may not seem like a big deal as most girls are normally happy about going to the hairdressers but to me, I have not been able to do it for years and I really do feel like this is a massive step in the right direction to make me happy again.
So let’s move on to my blogmas post before I start crying. Here is blogmas post day 19 –
Spreading joy is not just for Christmas!
Christmas is approaching at a rapid pass and so is a new year. This year has had its ups and downs for everyone and lets’ face it the world is in a bit of a mess. It is definitely something that does keep me up at night because I ask myself all the time what can I do? How can I make things better not just for myself but for everybody? I know that’s not a burden I should add to my shoulders but I am only human and how can I not be worried about the world we live in.
At Christmas we can get taken over by the spirit of Christmas and be more generous and kinder to people, but why does that have to end at Christmas?
Spreading joy shouldn’t be just for Christmas, I am not saying that we all should all become saints because that ship sailed a long time ago for me anyway. What I am saying though is that we all have the ability to spread joy to others and ourselves in small and big ways. Whether that is making the effort to do more self-care or using your voice to raise awareness for a charity or cause that means a lot to you. We do have the power within us to make a differience, we just have to learn how.