Welcome back to crazy little things! I hope everyone is doing ok and if you are not, well that is ok too because you don’t have to be ok all the time as you are only human. Today I had my Christmas cry, I have been putting it off, to be honest, because in a weird way I wasn’t quite ready to let go of some of those feelings. I guess it was the one thing keeping me grounded right now and not completely in the Christmas spirit. Right now I know I am grieving for my loss of my family dead and alive and what shocked me was how blinded I was from my own grief. My partner decided to do my Christmas cry with me today and his reaction shocked me. I knew that he can be an emotional person but because I was so lost in my own grief I forgot about his. He lost his Nan this year and I guess his family hasn’t really been the same since. So as we are watching my Christmas cry option, which is always The Royle family Christmas show special the queen of Sheba, he burst into tears. As we were sitting there holding each other crying, it really did make me realize that I am one fucking lucky person. I am with someone who is always so strong but also can show that emotional side even when he is putting my problems above his own. We are not a perfect couple and we have our issues but to be honest * cheese alert* there is no one I would rather have by my side day in day out, even if his socks never finds the laundry basket and the toilet seat is always left up!
So today’s blogmas post day 18 is –
Mental illness doesn’t go away for Christmas!
I have done a lot of work towards the end of this year to make some progress with my self-confidence and my food issues and there have definitely been some small steps made. Tis the season to be merry though and the temptation are all around to trigger stress eating and unhealthy habits that I have worked so hard to keep at bay. Nearly every other advert is for food and drink so it is right in your face to lose a bit of control. There is the catch though; losing control for me sets off the bitch of anxiety.
This is where I do have to be careful but not let it rule over me though, it’s a hard balance to find. It’s funny though that every advert before Christmas tells you to indulge then every advert after is telling you have overindulged, you can’t win.
So my advice this Christmas is to remember you are in control if you and no one can tell you how you should be spending your Christmas. The thing is mental Illness doesn’t go away for the holiday season so just keep yourself safe and merry you can do both!