Welcome back to crazy little things! I hope everyone is doing ok and if you are not, well that is ok too because you don’t have to be ok all the time as you are only human. So I have managed to be able to relax for a couple of hours today, ignoring my mind and pushing the feelings of having the need to do something with my time. This may sound crazy but to me it’s not, I find it difficult especially when manic to switch off and sit down. Today has also been an emotional day for me as well, I think now I am approaching that time at Christmas where all the emotions and memories are starting to hit me. Even though it has been kind of my choice to isolate from family, it is not so easy to wrap your head around something you know is good for your mental health but means you miss out on something.
My family is complicated and they have been very outspoken about me blogging certain things. Maybe that is my own fault that I shouldn’t be so quick to share this part of my life with people who know me, but on the other hand, it is something I am so proud of myself for doing to be able to help myself and help others as well.
Tomorrow I am so excited though, I have my sister and brother-in-law coming over and 2 of my nephews in the evening as a pre-Christmas get together and it means the world to me to be able to have some type of Christmas with my family.
So now time for today’s blogmas post day 14-
It is ok not to be ok at Christmas!
Feelings are a big part of Christmas, there are so many emotions whirling around and it is easy to push the negative ones down and pretend they don’t exist, because who wants to be miserable this time of year? There is no rule that you have to be jolly, you are not Santa! Taking care of your mental health this time of year can mean many things and one of them is acknowledging that it is ok not to be ok.
There is a lot of false happiness of people just sticking on a smile to get through the holidays and the pressure that is linked to that is intense. To me it is more important you take care of yourself mentally then put on a fake smile to make others feel comfortable around you just because it is Christmas.
Look – you could listen to Christmas music 24/7 and cover yourself in glitter and watch Home Alone over and over again and yeah it could put a smile on your face, but do it for the right reasons. Don’t feel like you have to pretend for someone else, my partner knows I am struggling at the moment and won’t force me to act jolly because it is nearly Christmas he loves me for me not for the fake smile I can put on.