Welcome back to crazy little things! I hope everyone is doing ok and if you are not, well that is ok too because you don’t have to be ok all the time as you are only human. I am still finding it so difficult to completely relax and switch off while being signed off. I know it has only been a few days but every time I try and sit down my mind is like “I don’t think so”, which then seems to be an invitation for my anxiety. The funny thing is I was already supposed to be off this week anyway even if I weren’t signed off sick; this is how bonkers my mind is! I always feel guilty if I am not doing enough or doing something productive. I wouldn’t mind if that was productive thinking within its self to get me motivated because sometimes honestly I still end up procrastinating and try to trick my mind into thinking I am doing something when I am not.
Well, that is the wonderfulness of my mind, it feels the need to be busy but can’t be arsed to do anything. So no wonder anxiety comes knocking now and then, as I really do put out a welcome mat at times. I am my own worst enemy.
Today’s blogmas day 11 post is –
Surviving families at Christmas.
Now when I told my partner I was doing this post he laughed out loud and said you have avoided your family for the last 5 years at Christmas. To be honest, he is right (don’t tell him that), I have avoided my family for the last 5 years and this year I won’t be breaking that tradition. If you are an avid reader of my blog you will know I don’t have the best relationship with most of my family apart from my siblings and plus my family is, to put it bluntly, are fucking broken. Even though I chose to separate myself doesn’t stop me from grieving and struggling with that decision. As Christmas is about family and spending time with the people you love. I know it is the best decision for me mentally though even if it is a hard one to make.
There are many of us out there who don’t see our family at Christmas for many different reasons and sometimes that decision is out of our hands. So really what advice could I give about surviving families a Christmas?
Well this is my advice. Family doesn’t always mean blood, if you are with people who you care about and care about you, then that is your family. Family comes in all shapes and sizes and no family is the same so why does it matter if your family is made up of friends, partners, blood relatives, and pets or even a mixture! Don’t let the pressure to survive Christmas with people classed as ”family’ make you do something that could be damaging for you mentally. As sometimes the family you need to be with are the ones you don’t feel the need you survive with.