Welcome back to crazy little things! I hope everyone is doing ok and if you are not, well that is ok too because you don’t have to be ok all the time as you are only human. There are times I feel so misunderstood or just unwanted and that I am never going to find my place in this world. Then there are times like today where I realize that that is just the lies that bipolar and anxiety tells me and I do have a place in this world. Even though people won’t always completely understand me doesn’t mean that I don’t belong because do we really understood 100 percent of people that are in our life’s? This realization doesn’t mean that I am cured and I am not going to get those thoughts again, no it just means that I have the motivation to help me push past those thoughts.
That was a long way of explaining that I am awful at making friends and maintaining those relationships but I am not as bad as I thought because I really do have an amazing group of friends.
So today’s blogmas post day 9 is –
What do we really want for Christmas?
If we got given a choice of whether to have something that was materialistic or a personal goal you wanted to achieve, what would you choose?
It’s a hard one really, I know it shouldn’t be but something materialistic is instant gratification where a personal goal can be hard and painful at times to achieve. We are coming to an end of a year and instead of thinking of things you want on your Christmas list try and make a list of goals you want to achieve. These are not new years resolutions because I find they can be rather negative. Instead, think of it as an open question with many possible answers.
Like these for example:
• I would like to learn to love my body. That doesn’t mean losing weight or getting a makeover, it can mean just telling myself every day I love every part of me, or even going back to therapy.
• I would like to make strides in my eating disorder, that doesn’t mean find a cure, which could mean I do the hypnotherapy for it or trying new foods again.
• I would like to have a better year with my anxiety, that could be anything from handling public transport better or making conversation to the person who makes my coffee at Starbucks
This is the time of year we reflect on past events and see the many lessons we have learned and also the things we need to work on.