Welcome back to crazy little things! I hope everyone is doing ok and if you are not, well that is ok too because you don’t have to be ok all the time as you are only human. Well, today I was honest with myself and with some of the people around me and stopped downplaying what is going on with my eyes. I know it is an inflammation but it is a bit more serious than that. I am basically fighting for my eyesight as this condition could take it and so could the treatment for it. I am suffering from a rare version of uveitis and it has been a hard journey so far and it won’t be getting any easier any time soon. Now I have to start thinking about what if the worse happens and do I want to spend the precious time I may have left with my precious good eyesight doing what I am doing?
I know I am thinking of the worse and that may never happen and I do have hope that things will be ok as maybe this is my anxiety getting the best of me. Maybe it is not though, and rather then be slapped in the face with bad news months down the line I am a bit prepared mentally to deal with it.
It is not all doom and gloom though, as this has just pushed me to do the things that I have been telling myself to do for a long time. I am now working on the book I have been planning since I was 12 and I am so excited to be starting that chapter in my life.
So let’s move on to my blogmas post day 4 –
What’s inside my Christmas stocking?
This is something new I thought I would try this year. Most people hang a stocking up for Christmas; I actually love the stocking I got as it describes me perfectly.
Stockings are usually hung up and filled with gifts from others and Santa of course. This year I thought it would be a good idea to fill my stocking up myself with notes from me to me. Each day either putting in a positive quote or a funny joke and even tiny victory I had that day. Then on Christmas morning, I can open up a stocking full of love for myself.
I wanted to give myself the gift of loving myself this Christmas and thought this was a good place to start. This idea can be adapted in so many ways; you could do it with a partner and write notes to one another each day. You could also get friends and families involved and ask them instead of a Christmas card can they write you a note for your stocking. It’s a great way of showing love without spending any money because really love shouldn’t come with a price tag.