Welcome back to crazy little things! I hope everyone is doing ok and if you are not, well that is ok too because you don’t have to be ok all the time as you are only human. What a busy weekend has been, my Christmas decorations are up and I have finally managed to finish my 3000 pieces harry potter jigsaw. Even though hasn’t been what I would say restful weekend it has been full of many create distractions form my anxiety.
Being able to decorate my house this Christmas though means so much to me. For the last 6 years, I haven’t really been able to have a big tree as lived in tiny apartments. So to be able to start some of our own Christmas traditions in our own house with my partner this year is an amazing feeling. Even though I did get a little bit sad because I have some decorations that are from my childhood. I have a bit of a broken family and a tense relationship with my parents so it was a mixed bag of emotions to see them hanging on my tree.
So today’s blogmas post is –
A blue Christmas…
Many of us are dealing with grief at Christmas, whether you are grieving for someone who has passed or someone alive that is no longer in your life. I deal with both and I came up with something a few years ago to help me with that grief. Which is called my Christmas cry! It is as simple as it sounds really, I have a fucked up family and I still grieve for my Nan who passed a while ago and it was consuming me every year. I was spending Christmas’s with such a heavy heart and I didn’t want that any more.
So one year a put on the saddest Christmas thing I could think of, which for me it is a show called the Royle family Christmas special the queen of Sheba. I watch and I cry and I grieve and laugh and I just let those emotions out. I do this quite early on in December and it really helps.
So my advice is if Christmas is a bit of a struggle have a day where you let those sad feelings out, as keeping then bottled up doesn’t make those feelings go away. By facing them head-on with a Christmas cry you are not letting those feelings control you and ruin your Christmas.