Welcome back to crazy little things! I hope everyone is doing ok and if you are not well that is ok too because you don’t have to be ok all the time as you are only human. Life is still throwing those jabs. She is taking the piss, I now have caught a horrible cold off my partner and it is destroying my throat right now and it has made me sound like a young boy going through puberty, it sucks!
This is just small set back and colds happen but I can’t help but thinking, fuck that if I want to be a grumpy germy bitch right now then that is my choice.
This is one thing that mental illness can’t take away from me and that is when I am ill I am a huge pissed off baby who rings her boyfriend upstairs to come downstairs to pass me the tissues or to make a drink. Something so primal as a cold can have an influence on your mental health but it doesn’t seem to be influenced by mental illness. So I can’t blame mental illness for being a big baby, nope that is 100% on me and it may seem weird to be so proud about being so melodramatic but it helps me recognize I am still in here through this mental illness fog I live in.
So yeah that was kind of a long way of me saying I am ill at the moment and being a bit of a baby about it but I am owning that shit. Yes, I might feel like life’s punching bag right now but not everything that happens to me is down to some supernatural being sticking pins into a Vixxy voodoo doll, no it’s just sometimes accepting that it is just bad fucking luck.
So let’s move on to my tips of the day –
You could do everything right and still fall flat on your face…
Have you ever felt like you were doing everything right like taking your medication, having therapy, doing self-care, opening up to people but still spiraled downwards? Yeah, I thought so we all have.
Just because you are colouring inside the lines doesn’t mean the picture you are colouring is going to turn into a masterpiece, hey you could sneeze while colouring and boom – out the line you go. What you do for your mental illness is not a cure, it sounds harsh but it really isn’t meant to be. We can convince ourselves by reading every positivity quote and doing everything right that we are ok we are not going to fall again. Sadly that’s not true you can do everything right and fall again and instead of blaming yourself and thinking you must have done something wrong (because we do that), try and understand that mental illness doesn’t come with an instruction manual. There is no set way or treatment to take and no one is doing it better than anyone else.
Falls are going to happen now and then. So just like this cold, I didn’t think I would get ill as I wrap up warm in the cold, I take vitamins and I wash my hands but I still got sick. No matter how much I thought I was preventing it from happening it didn’t stop me from getting sick, its just bad luck!