Welcome back to crazy little things! I hope everyone is doing ok and if you are not well that is ok too because you don’t have to be ok all the time as you are only human. Seems like the bitch of anxiety has decided she wanted to pop over for a visit while this dark storm is rolling on above me, she really does have great timing. It feels like my mind is squished between depression and anxiety, and there is no room for me to wiggle free. Every positive thought has to go through them and they just bounce it back and tell me “who are you kidding” before my mind has any chance of absorbing the positivity. I am worried and scared that this is going to be a long low cycle and my mind is going to take a battering, but it is a battle I am going to win, not try and win, just win. Because this warrior bitch won’t go down without a fight and there is still plenty fight left in me.
I really should think about changing my blog name from crazy little things to moany little things because that is all I do! But I tried explaining this to my partner earlier. I moan a lot, but I see it as I am getting things off my chest even the small things instead of letting them plant a seed in my head that feeds off negativity and eventually turns into a big twisted plant with long twisted roots that would end up being harder to get rid off. Well, it makes sense to me, or maybe I just like moaning or maybe it is a bit of both, who knows!
So my tip of the day is –
Just because it is hard doesn’t mean it is impossible.
It is hard to imagine that a few days ago there was light where the darkness is. I had a clear mind and now my mind is dark and heavy and instead of clear space, there is a fog stopping from seeing that path in front of me. Dealing with mental illnss is so fucking hard and it does get to a point now and then where it feels impossible. We have all had times where things feel like they go from bad to worse and you feel there is no way out of this storm that surrounds you.
But just because it is hard doesn’t mean it is impossible, things take time and you can’t rush recovery or care. Many of us panic when our mental health is in a bad state because you just want out of that situation you are not prepared to wait.
Which is so understandable because if we had a choice to be standing in that storm or not I am sure we would say hell no. A storm can not only teach us about how we can take care of ourselves but also teach us patience, learning that things take time as we can’t outrun the storm.
So it may be hard but so are you, remember warrior you can make what seems impossible possible.