Welcome back to crazy little things! I hope everyone is doing ok and if you’re not well that is ok too because you don’t have to be ok all the time as you are only human. That’s the thing about being human you are always trying to be okay or act like you are and that is where we can end up lost. Lost in the sea of emotions and reality, what is a valid feeling and what is not? What is down to mental illness and what is not?
I don’t know about you but I am tired of wandering round in the dark not knowing what is surrounding me, I am tired of not knowing which way to turn or freezing when I am at a crossroad. I am tired of not knowing what my next move is going to be and whether it is going to go backward or forward.
So now I am making a promise to myself, I promise that no matter how lost I can feel I will always keep looking for the light.
Even though it really has been a rough time lately and to top it off I had to have injections in my eyes a few days ago I am starting to pick myself up and even though I can’t see the light yet, I can feel it. I can feel the hope and strength starting to buzz through my veins, time to get myself back on track.
So my tip of the day is –
You can’t spell hopeless without hope.
I have been through the darkest of storms and the brightest of days; I have been up and down this path like a bloody yo-yo. There is one thing I have learned while feeling like a bloody yo-yo and that is we don’t always see the hope that pushes us forward.
That voice may only be a whisper but it is there in every tear we shed, every feeling of despair and every step we take whether it is forward, back or even fucking sideways.
“Just hold on” “it will be okay” “I won’t always be like this” no matter what hope is whispering to you it is there when you are feeling the most hopeless. So if you have had days and days in bed hiding from the world feeling hopeless that moment of when you decide to take a shower is hope.
Because we can’t spell hopeless without hope and it is there, just waiting to be heard.