Hope everyone is feeling ok and if you’re not, well that is ok too as you’re only human. So what can I say apart from still grumpy still got eye problems and still here! It is that simple today, I don’t feel a mood cycle coming I don’t feel that much anxiety, I feel a little bit fucked off still. I know I shouldn’t let the things get to me that are out of my control but this is my mind we are talking about, I specialize in over thinking. I just want to live and feel there are so many restrictions, I seem to get over one hurdle and before I get too far another one has popped up. This is why I feel that I am just surviving at the moment and not living so any wonder I am such a grumpy cow!
I am reaching the last few months of my 20’s and I getting more and more reflective and even though I have had some amazing things happened to me in my twenties, I also feel I have had the worse of things happen to me too. This is where the bitch of anxiety keeps popping in the occasional question like:
• Have I wasted my twenties?
• Will it even get better?
• This isn’t where I thought I would be at 29, is it?
It is hard not to react negatively to those questions, am I going through a midlife crisis at 29? (Ahhhh another question!) But I am here and that is a big achievement within itself, I have got through every bad day thrown my way so what is a few more!
Moan over with, now time for my tip of the day –
Strength is not always visible…
I doubt my strength, which a lot of us do, but that’s because we focus on the things that are challenging us at that time instead of the things we have been challenged by and won. Strength comes in many different forms so we don’t always recognize it, strength can be saying no to someone who you struggle to say no too, strength can be making that step forward to get help and strength can be showering after days of not being able to get out of bed.
Strength doesn’t always have to be loud for it to be there, strength can be quiet and show itself when you really need it too. You are stronger than you think and sometimes you need to remind yourself that strength is there. That is why I always write a tiny victories list for the day to give myself that reminder, give it a try to you will be surprised how much strength you have within.
Take care all,