Hope everyone is feeling ok and if you’re not, well that is ok too as you’re only human. Well, life has decided to fuck me over again with those damn lemons being thrown my way! I told you all about an eye problem a while ago and it has finally got better but now my other eye has got the inflammation, just my bloody luck! Straight away my mood just dropped, I just couldn’t believe it, the doctor did tell me that the condition will flare up now and then but I didn’t think it would happen this quickly. It feels like I just can’t win right now it’s either my mental health causing me problems or it is my body, it’s just not fair, don’t I just deserve a break from it all?
I feel like my life is this ongoing joke things just keep going wrong,
• Fucked up body √
• Fucked up mind √
• Fucked up family √
• Just plain old fucked!
I don’t want to be this girl who is just bitter and angry but I fear that if I keep heading down this path then that’s exactly where I am going to stay. This is the problem with how long you have to wait to speak to someone just because you are not suicidal you are classed as not urgent. Like how is that fair, I am struggling and trying the best I can, I know I have great days but I need help to process the mess inside my mind. I except now I need some help, but when I ask for that help it is a battle within itself to be taken seriously.
Anyway, enough of my moaning lets move on to my tip of the day –
It is never too late…
I procrastinate A LOT! I put things off for many reasons whether it is out of fear, tiredness or failing. Many people struggle to see their self-worth and so end up with the thought process of why should I bother. It is never too late to change that direction and for me it was writing lists. Whether it is a to-do list for the day week or month or even life, to see that goal in black white it is real so it is doable.
It is never to late to get help and trust me I know how long the process can take but I still feel good in myself for seeing I need that help and that I am trying to get better.
It is never too late to learn to love yourself to see the beauty in your flaws to get on that path acceptance.
It is never too late to live and this can mean something different to all of us whether it is happiness, forgiving ourself and letting go of the shame or finishing a hard chapter in life and starting a new one, it is never too late.
Take care all,