Hope everyone is feeling ok and if you’re not, well that is ok too as you’re only human. This is fucking ridiculous what the hell is wrong with me; it is like I am stuck in the middle zone. There are dark clouds but no storm there is anxiety but no fog there is light but not sunshine. I am really struggling to explain it, I am not full blown low mood cycle but I am not my normal self. It is like everything grey, yes that is it everything is grey there is no darkness but no colour I am stuck in an endless void right now and I don’t know which way it is going to end up swinging.
I am so glad I got myself a rose quartz crystal the other day I think that is helping to keep a little bit balanced thorugh this and not letting the darkness fully take over. I just hope I get unstuck soon this is a weird place to be and I feel the more I am stuck in this grey zone the harder it is going to be to get out of it.
I do feel this stems from me trying to face my food issues and I knew it was going to be hard but this is really taking a toll on me mentally I just hope I get an appointment with my therapist soon. To be honest I feel like my therapist is going to need to see a therapist after seeing my ray of sunshine self!
So my tip of the day is –
Crying is not a sign of weakness!
I will be honest, I do love a good cry and yes sometimes I cry at moments where I wish I wouldn’t of but after a while, I always feel a strange feeling of relieve. Yes, I have also felt shame, fear, and frustration if I have cried in a situation I didn’t want to cry but there is still that feeling of relieve behind those negative thoughts.
You can’t always put into words how you are feeling and I believe crying is a healthy way of letting out those feelings and emotions. What I would give right now to have a good cry but I just can’t seem to do it.
Crying is a magical thing as we can end up crying due to many different emotions good and bad, also can you think of any other thing the body physically does that is so reactive to your emotions? Because I can’t.
A single tear is a sign of strength not weakness, your tears have the ability to wash away the pain or show how happy you are, it is time we learn to not be embarrassed of our tears.
Take care all,