Hope everyone is feeling ok and if you’re not, well that is ok too as you’re only human. So as you know I have not been ok, I am going through a low mood cycle and it was a hard crash down but now the rain has settled and the wind has now turned into a gentle breeze, I can now catch my breath. It is not over but it is calmer which gives me more time to bring my focus back on the things I should be focusing on, instead of the things my anxiety is telling me to focus on.
I will be back to my pajama wearing tea drinking sarcastic self before I know it I have hope! Just bear with me, as I know I moan a lot when I go through a low cycle so I do apologize now for any future rants and grumpiness that is to come.
My tip of the day –
How to dance in the rain.
I never really understood the quote “Life isn’t about waiting for the storm to pass…It’s about learning to dance in the rain”, until now. I always thought it was silly, like how the fuck am I suppose to be feeling happy about feeling so shit, but now I understand it was never about that. It is more about embarrassing what you are feeling instead of trying to push it aside.
After a few days of struggling to contain the storm, I lay down my weapons and let the storm rage on. I was fighting against the darkness and losing and instead of taking more damage from the low mood cycle I learned to dance in the rain. I have cried till there were no tears left to cry, I have written until my fingers cramped up and I have listened to every sad and angry song on my Spotify playlist, this is how you change the game on anxiety and depression and dance in the rain. By letting those feelings flow through me and thnen out was a lot easier then bottling them up and exploding from the preasure. We have all been there where we hold and hold the anixety in and then something small happens like losing your page in a book and BOOM meltdown time!
There is no magical cure for mental illness and perfection is a myth but if we learn to embrace that part of us then we are going to be unstoppable warriors!
Please feel free to leave a comment and tell me how you dance in the rain I would love to hear them ( well read them).
Take care all