Hope everyone is feeling ok and if you’re not, well that is ok too as you’re only human. Well at the moment i feel like I am at the bottom of a dark well trying to figure out:
• How the hell did I get here?
• How long will I be here?
• How the fuck do I get out?
As my semicolon tattoo represents, my story isn’t over and it won’t end in this dark well. I have the strength within me to get through another low cycle and now I know what it is like on the other side, I am even more determined to dance in the rain. Even though there may be a million reasons to give up, we only need one reason not too.
On a positive note, I am going back to work tomorrow! My eye is not better, that is going to take months, I recognize I need a routine back. The more time I have off the more I feel I am going to deepen this dark well I am in and I need to keep away from the vicious cycles I easily can get caught up in. I have been honest with work and told them I am not 100% physically and mentally well but I still want to go back, because remember there is no such as perfect! So why ignore my mind telling me to go back that to me is a good sign, as I now realize I can’t stay in this comfort bubble forever, it is not good for me.
So my tip of the day is –
Recognising your truth.
There is one thing we all can be guilty of and that is lying whether it is about:
• How you are truly feeling,
• A situation that has happened
• To fit in
A lie seems like a good idea at the time as the truth can be a hard thing to face but eventually, that lie will catch up with you and then you feel even worse than you did when you told the lie. Some of us are better at lying than others and some of us can spend our whole life lying, but what type of life is that?
There comes a point where you start to believe in that lie yourself and that is not good for anyone’s mental state. As lying is good friends with the bitch of anxiety and when them two teem up it is not good, not good at all!
It may not easy but you have to rip the plaster off, yes the truth can fucking suck, but in the end, a lie is not worth the shit that comes along with it.
Take care all