anxiety · depression · mental health

Perfection is a fucking myth!

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Hey everyone,

Hope everyone is feeling ok and if you’re not, well that is ok too as you’re only human. Well, I knew this crash down back to the dark place would be a hard one but fuck me this storm has really rocked me and it has only just begun.
*I just had to stop writing as it was getting hard to write through the tears, but I am back to finish what I started*
So yeah had a bit of an emotional breakdown, it felt like my heart was hurting so much I just couldn’t find a way to stop the pain, so many emotions so little space to contain them. Because it was such a hard fall back into this dark place and so fast, I felt I like I couldn’t catch my breath. I wasn’t ready to let go of the good feeling. I finally felt like I was making some progress and I was so desperately hanging on to it, as I wasn’t ready to let it go just yet. I have just spent the last over an hour crying and stopping myself from doing something destructive, fighting that urge to self is harm is so fucking hard but I just sat and cried while I stroked my semicolon tattoo and waited out the urge to decrease. Still self-harm free for 7 years! Fuck you bipolar and anxiety I won that battle!
I know what pushed me over the edge, no I know who pushed me over the edge and I know you are reading this so thanks for that! This is my happy place if you don’t like it then don’t read it as you will never take this away from me, ever!

An outburst over let’s move to my tip of the day –

Perfection is a fucking myth!

It is so easy when you are going through a positive point in your life that you can get so caught up and strive to reach perfection but sadly perfection is a myth and it is one of the bitch’s of anxiety favourite weapons to bring you down. Perfection seems like such a positive word and that can trick the best of us into thinking it is real.
Instead of going after a myth go after your dreams instead, set yourself goals daily, monthly or yearly, whatever works best for you. Use that energy that you use towards a myth towards something that can be achieved.
Tell anxiety and that dark cloud to stick to perfection where the sun doesn’t shine!
Take care all

Vixxy rose
Xxx

10 thoughts on “Perfection is a fucking myth!

  1. Perfection is a nonexistent ideal no one can reach. I much prefer my imperfections as that is what makes each and every one of is unique. You have been doing an amazing job of keeping yourself positive and you are fighting back reclaiming your life. Everyone falls backwards but you also know it won’t last forever. And you did not give into your urge to self-harm. That is awesome. Sending you big hugs and I hope things smooth out for you. 💖💖

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  2. “Perfection” is a very important word in my life, because I have an eating disorder. I’m not like the people with an ED that feel they need to be perfect in everything. Grades, clean room, everyone loves you, etc. But I want a perfect body. And I know it’s impossible, but this is what my ED is telling me and it is very hard to fight that idea. The word “perfection” bounces around my head a lot, and it’s not bringing anything good into my life. Plus wouldn’t perfection be boring? If everyone was be perfect the world would be boring.

    I’m so sorry you’re going through all of this shit. I wish I could help somehow 😔 Let me know if there’s anything I can do.

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  3. Perfection is something that people strive for and want to achieve that isn’t real. People give me a funny look when they say I want to be perfect. My response is that’s unrealistic. I’m not trying to be rude. It just isn’t. I get the struggle, my ocd wants certain things to be perfect. My brain is like um, no. (The good parts of my brain). Keep your head up darlin. Positive thoughts sent your way.

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