It is worth fighting for!

NEVERGIVEUP02.jpgHey everyone,Hope everyone is feeling ok and if you’re not, well that is ok too as you’re only human. I am not ok and for once this is not down to my mental illness, this time it is down to my body that just keeps on fucking failing me. Come on isn’t this list long enough:
• Bipolar
• Anxiety
• Acid reflux disease NowI have to add on an eye inflammation disease, why can’t life stop throwing those damn lemons as I feel like I am drowning in lemons right now. I haven’t stopped crying since I got home learning there is a chance I might still lose the eyesight in my right eye, I just have to have hope I have caught it quick enough to reverse the damage.
I do feel this news will have a knock on effect to my good mood as I feel I have put out a welcome mat for anxiety and bipolar to cause some havoc. I just can’t catch a break! I am full of emotions right now; fear, anger, lost, broken, all the feelings have decided to have a catch up inside my mind right now. But 2 days ago I got my semicolon tattoo and maybe it was fate to have this reminder on my wrist that I can get through whatever life brings my way, I have done it before I can do it again. So my tip of the day – It is worth fighting for!Right now I am on the edge of falling down a rabbit hole of a deep depression, but I am digging in my heals and won’t fall without a fight. Even though you may feel you are being pushed down doesn’t mean you can’t push back, fight dirty if you must, as this is your life, not your mental illnesses’. This is your fucking life you sometimes have to bear arms and fight for it, so even if you fall you can hold your head up high and climb back up and look your mental illness in the eye and say “is that all you got!”
Because I guarantee I won’t go down without a fight and you can bet your ass if I fall I will get back up stronger and show my mental illness whose life this is.Take care all,Vixxy rose

9 thoughts on “It is worth fighting for!

  1. This is terrible news! I’m sending positive energy your way hoping it’ll help somehow. Hope for the best and prepare for the worst. But do not lose hope whatever you do however you feel. You won’t lose your eyesight. I just won’t accept any other outcome.

    Semicolon on your wrist is an amazing idea! I’m planning to get a semicolon tattoo somewhere on my body too. Because my wrists are taken by the tattoo of the quote that has saved my life when I was ready, for the first time, to actually kill myself. Let that tattoo remind you of why you’re fighting and if how far you’ve come already! Tattoos on wrists are super helpful. Hang in there. Please. I mean it. Hang in there with all you’ve got, just as you’ve said in this post. Stay strong, stay brave, stay hopeful. If you need someone to talk to, I will be here ❤️

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