Hope everyone is feeling ok and if you’re not, well that is ok too as you’re only human. Well I am still a big ball of sweat right now and I also have the weirdest tan, 2 inches of my ankles and my arms and face, thanks work uniform! I wish they came up with an opposite version of a hot water bottle! I know there is icepacks but I can’t cuddle an icepack, hmm maybe I can fill my hot water bottle with ice water? Worth a try!
I am on a winning streak right now with my mental health, I have never felt myself for such a long period of time in such a length of time. I feel like I have battled my demons and they have fucked off to lick their wounds from their ass kicking. I know I am probably tempting fate right now as this could rapidly change and bite me in the ass, but I can’t help it I haven’t felt this good in such a long time I want to shout it from the rooftop.
Unfortunately, I can’t shout it from the rooftop I can only whisper, which isn’t fucking fair. Even though I am a lot more open with my mental health struggles on here and a select few people in my life, I am not able to be fully open. Which leads me on to my tip of the day…
Sorry, not sorry!
I am so fucking proud of the progress I have made with my mental health and with my blog; I never thought I would get to this point, ever. I have my happy place and I will never let anyone take that away from me.
The other day I was messaged on Twitter form a girl who was struggling with her mental health and telling the people around her, I didn’t know how to answer her, as some of the people in my life didn’t take it well. Also, another blog site approached me about reposting one of my posts, I was overcome with such pride and joy. I asked my partner about sharing this news on Facebook, finally come out to everyone I know about my blog and he said no don’t open that can of worms again. Basically, I told my parents about my blog not long after I started and asked them to read it, well let’s just say it didn’t go down well. I was told to take it down, they were not happy and ever since then I haven’t gone into too much detail on here because of them, I know they don’t read it but I didn’t want to risk the backlash.
Well, fuck that!
Am I sorry that my words caused pain? Yes, but not sorry that I am sharing my story to help others as well as myself.
Telling the people in your life is one of the hardest things you can go through and there is always a risk it won’t go down well but if those people can’t accept you for who you are, then its time for a sorry not sorry! Sorry they feel like that but not sorry for who you are, don’t edit yourself to fit what others think you should be.
Take care all