Hope everyone is feeling ok and if you’re not, well that is ok too as you’re only human. Wow, this heatwave the U.K is going through is crazy, I am sweating in places I didn’t know could sweat. I wish I had more confidence in myself to wear more suitable clothes for this weather, damn you bitch of anxiety! I am having a good week though no real mood changes and not much interference from that bitch anxiety either. I am slowly getting used to being me again and it feels pretty good. I think I am finally finding that balance with my mental illness that was so desperately needed. I can spend so much time on my issues and demons, which don’t leave much time for just living. Now that I have accepted I can’t change the past and I need to stop letting it affect my present and future. I am the only author in my story.
I know it is not always going to feel this easy and I know there is still battles to come and they may come off as negative but to me it is realistic. I am cured of bipolar and anxiety as there is no cure, I am just trying to leave in harmony with my mental illness as it is a part of me and there is nothing I can change about that.
So let’s move on to my tip of the day before the day is over with!
Can we moonwalk our way through life?
I feel I have spent the last few months going through low cycle after low cycle with the occasional manic cycle thrown in there to spice things up. But now I am free falling I am I no longer have those chains on me from my anxiety and bipolar I am able to see the joy in life once again. No matter how much this is scary as hell it is also so peaceful to have my mind back from my demons. I wouldn’t have got here without going through the bad shit first though. My path is still unclear, and even though I feel like I take two steps forward and one step back from time to time, maybe those steps back are necessary to redirect us.
So a step in any direction whether its forward or back or left or right it’s a step and that step will eventually lead you in the right direction.
If you wanted to moonwalk your steps for fuck sake that’s ok its your journey it’s your choice.
Take care all