Hope everyone is feeling ok and if you’re not, well that is ok too as you’re only human. Well for once I can say it has not been the bitch of anxiety kicking my ass this week, it has been this high pollen I am a wheezy sneezy red-eyed mess right now! And what did my doctor advised me to do “ don’t go outside” erm how I am supposed to get to work, dig a tunnel? Actually not a bad idea!
Well, I love how easy it was to get an appointment to talk about my hayfever compared to me trying to get a new appointment to see my psychologist, still trying its been months. I feel I have just been diagnosed and then left to it to deal with it, honestly, I feel forgotten about, it really is a good job I have you guys to help me along with my journey.
So this week has had some ups and downs but more ups than downs, the bitch of anxiety seems to of shut up and also no mood cycle seems to be looming so I am back to plain old me. I am still getting used to this feeling of just being me again its weird as fuck, but why is that? Am I to use to giving control to my mental illness? Have I lost myself along the way? Will I always feel like this?
If you have ever experienced this please leave a comment below and let me know how you have dealt with that feeling.
So my tip of the day is – Sometimes you need to shake things up!
While I have been setting up my new writing area, a fancy way of saying desk, but hey it makes me feel special. I bought this lovely cactus snowglobe because I have a thing for cactuses at the moment, I have them everywhere at the moment. It is so peaceful and calm in the globe and then you shake it and then an explosion of glitter rains down on the cactus disturbing the serenity. Then it hit me, I am the bloody cactus in the snowglobe. I put myself in the bubble now and then mostly at the weekend and I will refuse to do things to stay in that bubble. Am I doing myself more harm than good?
Now and then I need to shake It up let the glitter rain down and yes it may put me out my comfort zone but once the glitter has settled no harm is done I am still the same cactus in the snowglobe.
It is so easy to get caught up in a safe routine but how are we supposed to improve or try new things again doing the same thing in that bubble. So now and then give that bubble a shake and see what the rain of glitter can bring you.
Take care all