anxiety · depression · mental health

Scream and shout let it fucking out!

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Hey everyone,

Hope everyone is feeling ok and if you’re not, well that is ok too as you’re only human. It’s only Tuesday I am ready to drown my sorrows in a bath size cup of tea, that bitch of anxiety has set up home in my head and won’t get the message she is not wanted. I think I am going to get a punching bag with anxiety written on one side and bipolar on the other and kick the shit out of it during the bad days, what you think? As it got so bad on Monday night I woke up in sheer panic at stupid o’clock in the morning because anxiety fancied a fucking chat about “someone is breaking in” “ you shouldn’t go to work” “ you’re a burden on your partner”. Well after my partner had calmed me I stuck two fingers up to anxiety and ignored her bullshit and carried on the good fight, went back to sleep in my loving partner’s arms and went to work next day.

I know it is not always going to be that easy, but I fucking won I did I got my shit together and ignored the bitch that is content on ruining my life. Its victories like this we should always remember, save them somewhere, whether you write it down in a tiny victories list or store it in your mind, those victories should be used to shine the light on the dark days.

So today’s tip of the day is – Scream and shout let it fucking out!

Look we can’t always keep a cool head, sometimes I get so angry with myself, with the world, with my mental illness no chamomile tea is going to put out that fire. At the same time, it is ok not to be ok, it is ok to feel angry, upset, hurt, disappointed, those are your feelings and own that. Sometimes I get so angry I feel like smashing every single cup in my cupboard, I don’t because what would I drink tea in! Hence why I think I should get a punching bag, thinking of my cups safety!
Don’t get me wrong I am not saying it is an excuse to be an asshole, but don’t extinguish those flames completely, whether it’s going into a dark room a screaming into a pillow to feel better or using that fire to push you forward on your journey to get shit done.
Your feelings matter, as you matter.

Take care all

Vixxy rose
Xxx

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