Hope everyone is feeling ok and if you’re not, well that is ok too as you’re only human. Hello weekend bubble aka pajama and tea time, lots of tea and fuck it lets throw some biscuits into the mix why the hell not. I am feeling more energized now, took me a bit of time and sleep to recover from my latest manic cycle but back to my annoying self. I have had a few little blips of anxiety this week but nothing I haven’t been able to handle. I guess the hardest bit of this week was having my issues with my mom rear it’s ugly head and it brought up emotions I have just been pushing down as I am not ready to face that shit right now. And that’s ok as this is something that is not going to be solved overnight it’s going to take time and I don’t feel strong enough yet. But I will, I am not running from it, as I have learned the hard way you can’t run from your issues they always find you.
Well enough of the rambling, I want to talk about that bitch we all seem to know so well, this bitch likes to fuck up your life when you least expect it and can stop you from doing things you really want to do. This bitch can make you not only think your mind is against you but also the whole damn world.
Ladies and Gentlemen this is Anxiety…
The one important thing I have learned with my battle with anxiety is no story is the same, this bitch can affect people in so many different ways, from:
• Heart palpitations
The list is endless, the bag of tricks anxiety seems to have reminds me of the fucking Mary Poppins bag. These means it can be so hard to know what to do when anxiety hits.
I didn’t realize what I was dealing with was anxiety until about 5 years when I first saw help for my mental health and the health professional explained to me what anxiety is. I always listened to those bad thoughts anxiety gave me, as come on its coming from my own mind so it must be true, right?
No, I was so wrong, I wasn’t lazy, not everyone on this earth hated me and I wasn’t a loser.
I am a warrior and go to battle with this bitch of anxiety and you know what I am winning more and more these days and I may lose a battle now and then but that’s ok because I know I will win the war.
Take care all