Hope everyone is feeling ok and if you’re not, well that is ok too as you’re only human. Halfway through another working week and my second day back at work after a lovely few days camping at the seaside. I have never needed my weekend bubble so much, I feel like I have had time away from life and now life is back to throwing those life lemons at me at warp speed. I feel recharged from the weekend but with these lemons flying in from every direction, I am losing power fast.
Even though I feel like this, I also feel quite balanced weirdly enough. I don’t feel like I have any cycles on their way just feel generally me and I guess that’s why I am feeling overwhelmed. I don’t feel the panic of mania or the desperation of a low, I feel disconnected from just being me and working on normal things like; bills, work etc. I just have to spend some time with me and getting to know this part of me better and concentrate on keeping up with my self-care as it is just as important when out of a cycle.
My tip of the day is – Don’t forget who you are.
As you can tell I feel I have lost myself a bit with my bipolar and anxiety, I feel my mental illness has taken over my life. I have found myself worrying about whether to do something in case it sets off my anxiety or my bipolar and that is not a way to live. I have lost what my sparkle, what makes me, me.
I now realize how important it is to remember the parts of myself that have nothing to do with my mental illnesses. So I am going to start it as simple as I can. Once a week doing something just for me, not to help my anxiety or my bipolar, but for me.
• Buy a new book to read
• Go and have a coffee somewhere nice
• Watch my favourite film.
• Find a new recipe to try
So give it a go do things for you not just for your mental illness and keep that sparkle going.
Take care all