Hope everyone is feeling ok and if you’re not, well that is ok too as you’re only human. Guess who is not in her weekend bubble! No weekend pajamas for me, instead it’s going to be wellies and thermals as I am off camping. I can’t wait to get away for a few days by the seaside, I hope the weather is nice but I live in England so I will be happy if it doesn’t just rain all weekend.
This week has been stressful, I feel there is a cluster of storms heading towards me and I can’t seem to get out of the way, because of this, for the first time in a while I’ve really had the urge to self-harm. I haven’t self-harmed in 7 years but that doesn’t stop the urge popping up every now then. I usually get the urge when I feel hopeless and right now I feel hopeless. I can’t seem to escape the darkness that seems to be following me. I am proud of myself for not giving into those urges, I recognized the signs and my thoughts and I took back control. That definitely deserves a self-high five.
This is why I am glad I am getting away for a few days with my partner and friends, I need to not only recharge the old batteries but also clear the fog in the old noggin. I need to get strong again.
So my tip of the day is – Be you, let the arseholes be arseholes.
This world is full of some pretty amazing people, so many people out there trying to do good not only for themselves but for others too. But now and then you are going to bump into an arsehole, someone who spends so much energy trying to bring you down to their level. I have met my fair share of arseholes so far in life and I have sometimes been brought down to their level, but now I see that got me nowhere.
So my tip of the day is for myself too, I am just going to do me. I am not going to let arseholes change who I am. I don’t need their negativity affecting my mood because a negative does not make a positive.
Take care all