Hope everyone is feeling ok and if you not, well that is ok too as your only human. Here we are then Wednesday, well it feels more like Monday part 3 because is it just me or is this week going extra slow. I am still under the dark clouds and I am finding it a little harder to get out of this storm, so that may be the reason why this week is dragging. I actually stopped one morning this week on the way to work, why am I doing this, I thought, why do I keep fighting? Is more than this, more than this pain?
Please don’t read this wrong, I am not low I am just tired and I need to rest, fighting your mind on a daily basis is exhausting and don’t we all deserve a break now and then. I want to turn the shadows that haunt me, into something beautiful and meaningful.
Maybe it will help to unpack one of the pieces of baggage I carry around me. I am going to take my story and use it, be the light in the darkness for others lost in the dark with me.
My tip of the day – I wonder if…
I wrote this sentence the other day in my notebook when I consumed by a thought that seems to be stuck on a loop in my mind and this one sentence set me free. By writing down the things that take up a lot of space, it helped me accept this is how I feel and now I can find a way on from that wonder.
So write down what you wonder, whether it is;
• I wonder if they ever loved me
• I wonder if I will always be lost
• I wonder if I will ever belong
• I wonder if I will be happy
• I wonder if I will get that job
Whatever it is that lays heavy on your heart, write it down. Take back control and set yourself free with a paper and pen because you never know, that wonder could be that thing holding you back.
Take care all