Hope everyone is feeling ok and if you not, well that is ok too as your only human. Well, here I am Sunday night eating cookies and drinking tea trying to forget it is Monday tomorrow. I just want to stay in my bubble; my bubble is safe and comfy. I don’t want to go back into society again where a lot of my anxiety triggers lay in wait for me to walk on by so they can pounce on my back and ruin my day. But I guess I have to be brave and strong and push past those feelings because if I didn’t there is a good chance I would end up a shut-in and only leaving the house if an ice-cream van drives past.
Anyway, I am rambling as usual, let’s get on with the blog post. I have been thinking a lot this weekend about how little believe I can have in myself because of the way anxiety can just take over my thought process. I started this weekend self-loathing and honestly wondering how I can’t do this anymore, I am tired of fighting my own mind but then I won a battle I thought I would never win.
Fuck all those thoughts and fuck anxiety I pushed forward and this weekend turned out to be a pretty good one and slowly but surely those thoughts went from screaming in my mind to the occasional whisper.
So my tip of the day is – There isn’t one!
Today instead of giving you a tip, I want to give you something else I want to tell you all that since I have started this blog you all have helped me so much. So instead of a tip, I am going to give you all what you gave me, hope. But what is hope?
Hope is no matter how low or manic you are feeling that it won’t last forever.
Hope is being heard when you have struggled to find your voice.
Hope is knowing that deep down you do possess the strength to get through life.
Hope is not always feeling scared of when anxiety will pop in for a visit.
Hope is one day not worrying that we no longer have the stigma towards mental illness.
Also, hope is you all out there supporting one another and finding connections with people you normally wouldn’t in your everyday life. So let’s keep hope alive people.
Take care all