I have lost something very important to me, well to all of us really, can someone tell me where the weekend went! Honestly, it was here a second ago and then poof, gone! Well, maybe it will be back again soon, in about 5 days hopefully…
Well, let’s get on with the show, what a Monday it has been. I honestly feel quite down today, I have been a bit silly and push something deep down as far as it can go and now it has sprung a leak that has pushed me further into a low cycle. Ah well, we live and learn I guess.
You know what though I am tired of feeling like a broken record, I am tired of feeling sorry for myself, I am tired of the bottomless well of issues, oh fuck it I am just fucking tired!
I know this is mostly the bipolar talking right now but for once I would like to just be left alone from those damn life lessons, lemons, shit whatever you want to call them and just be me.
My tip of the day – We may not always get the answers.
Let’s be real here, things don’t always figure out like you want them too if things did do that then let’s face it, would I be doing this blog right now. No one can give me the answer to why I have bipolar but that doesn’t stop that question from running through my mind. Just like all of you out there my mind is full of whys, how comes and what ifs. We all wonder why mental illness has to affect our lives. I would love to get the answers to all the questions that run through our heads but I know deep down I won’t. I promise myself and you all, I will never let it stop me from learning, helping and being as cool a fuck!
So as the tears of falling freely from my eyes right now, I have faith that I may not get all the answers but my life won’t always be plagued with never-ending questions, one day I will be free to be me and you will be free to be you.
I won’t let you down
I will not give you up
Gotta have some faith in the sound
It’s the one good thing that I’ve got
I won’t let you down
So please don’t give me up
‘Cause I would really, really love to stick around
Freedom! 90 – George Michael
Take care all