Sunday fucking night how did we get here? I don’t want to wear clothes again thank you, I want to stay in my pj’s wrapped in my blanket drinking my body weight in tea (and that is a lot of tea) for one more day maybe two, please. Well if that wish doesn’t come true I guess I have to get myself ready to go back into the outside world tomorrow whoop-dee-frickin’-doo!
Sure I could be positive, I could get myself mentally ready, have a bath with some candles, I could if I wanted to but I don’t! I am going to write this post and make myself another tea and watch a film and do my tiny victories list for the weekend.
That’s the thing with recovery and improving oneself you have to want to do it not just do it for the sake of it as what would be the point in doing something that your heart is not in. So don’t feel bad that if you are not doing something positive and motivational, you’re not a greeting card, you’re a human!
Tip of the day – I have issues and you have them too!
It is so easy to fall into that trap of projecting that image of “yay I have a mental illness but look how positive I am”. Come on be realistic no one’s life is all peace and light. Just look at some of my issues:
• I can go months without shaving my legs because honestly, I don’t care I wear jeans anyway.
• I cry at silly things like losing a pen.
• Not only do I have daddy issues I have mommy issues too.
• I am a 29-year-old still scared of the dark and still sleep with a light on if I am alone.
• I eat my feelings a lot.
• My social skills are laughable.
I could go on, trust me, but what I am trying to say is that it is ok! Just have a day off or two from doing everything to motivate yourself. How about just recharging your motivational battery instead of crashing when it runs out.
Take care all