I hope everyone is doing ok and if you are not remember that it is ok not to be ok. So another working week down for me and I am not going to lie I am fucking ecstatic! I think I have held on to my sanity by the skin of my teeth, as life decided to throw a shit load of lemons my way this week, thanks again for that life when will you listen to me I don’t want to make any lemonade!
So far this week I got visited by these feelings (oh lucky me):
Basically felt royally fucked off by this crazy thing we called life, but you know what I got through these fucked up emotions even though at times I thought I wouldn’t. I didn’t run and hide even though every part of me wanted to do, as why should I take part in life, as life is making it clear it doesn’t want me too? Well I figured out in the end maybe this was n’t even life talking maybe it was just my own personal demons and mental illness.
Well, let’s stay on this honesty train and introduce you all to my latest themed blog post, which will be coming at you every now and then maybe every week who knows!
These are my confessions of the week.
I struggle to form friendships. Making and even keeping friends is difficult for me, I feel like I don’t know how to communicate with other humans to a point where I start thinking there is something seriously wrong with me I am nearly 29 and it is not getting any easier, thank you anxiety!
I give a lot of fucks. We are all guilty of saying you know what I don’t give a fuck when actually we do. I give a fuck if people dislike me I even give a fuck if people like me. I give a fuck about the world and the people in my life. I give a fuck when one of my blog posts completely flops, yep my hands are held up high I confess I am a sensitive person.
I have told more than one lie this week. I have told people I am ok when I am not, guilty as charged. I have been late for a couple of things this week and blamed it on public transport where actually it is because I have had to give me myself a pep talk to even get out of this house as I didn’t want too.
Hope you enjoyed my confessions!