I hope everyone is doing ok and if you are not remember that it is ok not to be ok. My birthday is coming up in a few weeks and honestly, I fucking hate my birthday, not because I am getting older, because I have a lot of bad memories connected to my birthday and honestly I don’t think I can go to that dark part of my mind to list them. They are already scratching at the door the closer I get to my birthday so for now, I am cementing that door again till I next go to therapy.
On another note, I did something the other day that may not seem like a big deal but for me it was. I was taking care of my nephews for a few hours and they heard my partner call me by my shortened name and they looked at me confused, I explained to them that is what a lot of people call me. They asked if they could call me that and I said yes, which surprised me, as usually my family calls me by long name but I don’t associate with that name anymore. This is a big step for me to recognize who I am and not what other people tell me who I am supposed to me so self-high five for me!
*RANT WARNING EVERYBODY THIS IS YOUR WARNING CALL A RANT IS ON ITS WAY*
We all have burnt a bridge or two I know I have! But when you are the one responsible for that bridge being burnt then you should be responsible for rebuilding that bridge right?
I always say this that everything has a positive or negative reaction and shouldn’t we all be responsible for the things we put out there in the world. So can someone explain to me why this is so many people out there setting fire to bridges and looking over to the other person at the other end of that burnt bridge to fix it? How do you learn from that?
If you burnt that bridge then you have two choices, fix it or move in another direction and learn from what has happened. if you are the person whose bridge has been burnt then shouldn’t your choices be to let them rebuild and meet halfway and help or move in another direction?