I hope everyone is doing ok and if you are not remember that is ok not to be ok. Well the storm is settling and I can finally hold my face up to the rain and smile, I can taste the raindrops on my tongue with no fear of being struck by lightning. The best thing about this is the emotional intensity is decreasing and the levels are going back to normal, well whatever that is. I can do all those small emotional things like smile and frown without the worry it is going to turn into something more extreme. Having that small bit of control back gives my life back to me and not to my bipolar and anxiety and that feels fucking amazing.
Now I have my demons back on a short leash I can concentrate better, my mind is no longer foggy and I can look at the bigger picture instead of the small one the fog was showing me.
We can fall apart but we can also fall back together.
Things fall apart from time to time lets face it; no one can say they haven’t had things go wrong. It is so easy to focus on the walls crumbling down around us instead of seeing that the rumble is turning into something new and even different at times. Falling apart is not the end of the world, it may be a new chapter in our life’s beginning.
New beginnings are painful and honestly irritating as fuck but necessary, how can we move forward if we are stuck in the past.
Take care all