I hope everyone is doing ok and if you are not remember that is ok not to be ok. The walls are closing in I can feel it, as the dark clouds start forming above my head. The warning signs are blaring and even if you are able to acknowledge them and use your mental health toolbox to fight it away, sometimes you just can’t. I feel like I have been doing everything right to fight off a storm but sometimes a storm has to happen. It is like you are pressing refresh on yourself; the storm can do good and wash away the emptiness you are feeling once it is over.
I know it is hard to see a positive side to a low cycle but for me, I was stuck and I couldn’t feel anything and I knew a cycle was coming I just didn’t know when or if it was a low or manic one. Now I know, I am ready to battle with whatever the storm throws my way.
So my tip of the day is – wash it all away!
I sometimes feel like I don’t recognize whom I am or who I have become. I can be a right bitch but also a shining angel. I was not surprised when I got my bipolar diagnosis I have always felt like there were two sides to me. This tip is something that can give me a little balance during hard times.
I was a self-harmer for a good portion of my life and I never thought I would be able to stop but here I am 6 years down the line and no self-harm! So this is my tip of how I overcome things that are too much for me to handle and I feel that urge to harm and it is also a great tool to have in your toolbox for anxiety.
I will write everything that I am feeling that is negative on my hands and arms doesn’t matter if it is paragraphs or just a few words. I will then go in the shower and let the water away my pain. There is something so therapeutic to see the words wash away into nothingness. Give it a try because what have you got to lose?
I have a feeling I am going to squeaky clean over the next week or so!
Take care all